Just for Today.

I once had to do a photo shoot out of town and ended up staying at a hotel for the weekend. While I was in the hotel room, I found a key chain for Narcotics Anonymous that said "Just for Today." I liked it immediately, and placed it on my keys. I always enjoyed it, one because it may have given people a perception of me that was made up and two.. seriously! who has a key chain for Narcotics Anonymous!?!
So yesterday, when I went to meet David and a friend for happy hour I had to remind myself just for today. We were hanging out with a friend that enjoyed smoking and he invited us to join him outside. While outside, David announced that he wanted to smoke. I kept saying no, but it is honestly very hard to have this struggle with your partner. At times, we are not the nicest of people. But I remind myself every day why it is so important for us to do this.
It has been hard, but as much as I would love to lie to you and say I haven't slipped once or twice is wrong. This has been an extremly hard struggle and everytime I fall off my horse, it's even harder to get back up. They say that it takes 3 days for the Nicotine to get out of your system, but the hardest parts are the habits. I have found out that I can not go out with my friends for Happy Hour until I have officially kicked this habit for good. That makes me sad of course because I really enjoy spending time with my friends, but if I drink I know it is going to lead me to want to smoke.
I am also going to have to change myself when it comes to other habits. When I first started it was things like having one after dinner or just being bored and then lighting up. But now I have to stop. So I am pushing forward with just focusing on 'Just for Today'. I can not smoke just for today and I think if I just focus on today, I will definitely be able to have a checklist of smoke free yesterdays.